"Is anyone among you suffering?
Let him pray"
James 5:13
So last week one of my Amazing and Awesome kids had to go someplace I was wishing they didn't have to. It wasn't dangerous or anything; as a matter of fact they probably were glad to be there. It was just something I wouldn't have wanted to do myself. Plus I didn't like the impact it was having on our schedule, so the whole situation was making me uncomfortable.
So as I was driving there, I was feeling all.... twisted inside. My heart and my stomach were kind of crunched up; you know what I mean? Mad at the timing, frustrated by the circumstances, and even ~ in my heart ~ laying blame at the feet of the people who I felt were responsible.
After I dropped off my Awesome and Amazing child, I spent the next few hours feeling that way. Irritated, frustrated, infuriated, exasperated, aggravated, vexed, irked, nettled, piqued, disgruntled. {Man, I love words!}
But here's the thing: I was so busy wishing it didn't have to happen, that while it was happening, I wasn't even praying for my child. I was just wallowing in my unhappiness. How's that for putting your focus on the problem, instead of the solution?
Peaceful and rested in my heart? Nope. I chose crunchy and twisted insides, instead.
Do you know Jeremiah 29:13 "You will seek Me and find Me, when you search for me with all your heart." Well here's the wording that was in my head that day: "You will seek Me and find Me, when you finally get around to searching for Me...."
Fortunately, God loves even a slow learner....
~ "You will keep in perfect peace,
whose mind is stayed on You" ~
Isaiah 26:3
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