"I went out full"
We did a lot of driving around this weekend, so the Apple of my Eye filled the gas tank in my car. I just love having a full tank, don't you? I was with him when he did it, but when I got in my car this evening, and saw that full tank, I kinda thought, "Oh, yeah!"
I love that he did it for me, because even though it's not really a huge hassle, it's kind of a hassle, ya know? And he cleans my windshield for me, and I rejoice greatly that I don't have to do that either. Cleaning my windshield is always a source of frustration for me because I can never get it clean enough to suit me. There's always streaks or drips or that spot in the upper corner that I can't quite reach. And the more I try to clean up those last couple places, the more I re-streak a place that I'd gotten clean.
I guess I have a little bit of an OCD streak or something...
But more than I love my Sweetie washing my windshield and filling my tank, I love knowing that I don't have to worry about it for a couple of weeks. I love to see the needle all the way up at "Full", and look at the digital display that estimates how many miles I can go before I need gas.
I'm sort of fascinated by that gauge. When I'm doing a lot of freeway driving, it gives me a higher range, of course, than when I'm driving around town. But when I'm doing a lot of stopping and starting, the estimate goes down. It's like it looks at the the mileage I'm currently getting, and it's telling me, "If you keep going the way you're going, here's what you can expect."
I would love if I had something similar for my spirit. I would love a warning that I'm relying on myself too much. My gauge would be high right after reading my Bible or praying, and then I'd notice my range getting smaller as I got busy and stopped thinking about Him. My digital display would read, "You can only go another eight minutes being loving, unless you get a fill-up," and I'd be reminded that I need to lean on Him.
Because the truth is, we're just never that far from "Empty". So we should never be far from Him.
~ "So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth;
It shall not return to Me void,
But it shall accomplish what I please,
And it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it." ~